WHY AM I DISTRACTED?

Everyday; i wake up on the bed of purpose 

Adrenaline to be a good-jobber

Bubbling within my inside

Cooking ideas that the world is in dearth need of.

The result thereof is a good me;

Determined to shine light to darkness

And virtue to virtues.

And be the man I long to be.

But: 

When i walk the street 

Hoping  to see what i envisioned;

And live to see my vision unleashed.

All i see is Necromancers of distraction 

Garnished with the Totem of immorality

Keeping the lion in me in a den

To entertain the Daniel of self destruction. 

All i see is a weak folk 

To weak to get what he wants

And say goodbye;

To what he doesn't need. 

I am Filled with light,

But Darkened by darkness.

I am filled with purpose and talent,

But stimulated by confusion.

Oh my world!

Really in need of who'd show me the way

Cos through the woods I've lost the wool to heal my wounded soul

Daily as i live; i die in pains

Pains of finding who i am.

I feel like a wasted investment 

The master has invested much on me 

I feel like life has no meaning

The master's expectation on me is gone fallow.

As a clotpole is to a prince

So am i to the Godhead

As a bone is to an aardvark

So am i to the master.

Deep within me lies huge love 

But courage to show i can't find

Deep within me lies purpose and talent

But the muse to unleash; that, i can't find.

I've come to end of self effort

Dropped off the journey

I lay me down in weary land where no muse is.

From whence my agony cometh from.

Dear God,

If you be out there

And you have use of my purpose and muse

Send help and light to my soul

Lest i perish. 

My would be vain

If i can't use my talent for your name

Open up the doors

And let me in

Let me dine with wine with you

So the lazy swine in me wouldn't delight in the disgusting wine of immorality

Help me Lord