When I Was A Nerd.

Sometimes we just look at out past experiences and smile at how far we've gone from the funny moment of livelihood. 
Sometimes we also feel we could go back to those days, seeing how far the world has deviated from it's moral norms. 

I was so young and only strong to words I could not understand. As the waves of peer pressure take me on a rollercoaster's ride.
And the hormonal vibes didn't help at all.

You know, high school thrill; everyone had a crush or a boyfriend or a girlfriend. But my world was in a realm beyond those realities. 

One moment I am with my friends and the next, they disappear to go meet their girlfriends or mess around with some hot chicks; and they leave me alone in a world of isolation like a yeti. 

It makes me so nervous and I felt so lonely.
 
I had a crush on a damsel but she doesn't know I even exist. 
All I do is just stand and give her a " oh how much I love you " look. 
And when she looks at me, I feel surge of electricity that makes my body shake like I have a Parkinson's disease. 

One faithful day, we went for a biology practical at the laboratory. 
And mehn! She was just so perfect, my eyes could not just ......

Then Daniel one of my friend noticed how I am just so focused to this beautiful damsel like she's my specimen. 

" go talk to her bro.... "

I looked at him like I wanted to say" hey dude, are you crazy? She will not even look at me"

Little did I know it was a begining of something crazy. 

Stupidity looms in my court, but I was just so vulnurable. 

I feel crazy writing this...

Oh my!!!!

Why am I doing this, my love for writing has sold me out. 

But I'll nonetheless....

But not today, maybe tomorrow. 

To my unborn Rachel

As you rest in my bosom
And a seed yet to be planted
Although I have seen you
And indeed you are a beautiful child. 

So, I took my time to write this for you
Hoping someday you, mum and I will read it together
As we cheer on your bed
And give you kisses of love. 

We will always tell you stories
Most of how we built our love
On trust and purpose
And became great minds you can be proud of. 

I grew from depression
Until God blessed me with mum
And she became a light 
Through which I found myself. 

She made me wanna be a good man and a father
And her smile made me healthy. 
It was a long way from here

I wish you will have a good heart like mum
And help broken heart mend
With kisses of hope

Although, am not proud of most of my actions
But love held me up
And I let go off depression
And became a hero. 

Never forget this;
You have a reason to live
And love spices up your journey

Just like Isaac met his purpose in Rachel
I hope you lead this world to Jacob
Who will send God's people to the promise land. 

I love you Rachel...

Love Like Raindrop.

The warmth of companionship
The sweetness of kiss
The Highness of emotion
And the thought of being lost 

As long as I have you,
I don't need much. 
I'll hide under your shadows
And all life struggles doesn't matter

As long as I can have you kiss
And feel the warmth of your chest on me
And have your arms fill up my rims
That's all I ever need

I'll rather live with you in a lonely island
Than living without you in a golden mansion
You are my passion
And my reason for existence
And my whole devotion.

As we flow through life
I'll always be your laughter
And bring down raindrop of love
Till we be drowned by the thrills of love. 

Even if we can't find heaven
I'll walk through hell with you. 
It's just a feeling I wanna pour out 
To you my beautiful angel

You know,
Beautiful brown eyes
Spicy red hot lips
You alone has these feature

I'll stand by you baby.